“You failed”. It was the second time I heard that from the doctor’s office regarding the recent blood work. Is there no better way to word it? No, just “you failed”! It has a way of ringing in your ears making you think there was something you should have done to succeed. Every pregnant mama knows of the dreaded “glucose test”. You go in, they take your blood, make you drink sugar garbage as fast as you can and check your blood again in an hour. If you fail that one, as I did, you get to go back in for the 3-hour fun. This time you sit and sit and sit after drinking the sugar garbage and have your blood taken every hour to see if you’re a really big failure or just a small failure. I ended up with the double fail. Yep… #totalmomfail
The disappointing factor is; I’m healthy. Health is my business! I eat well, I exercise, get plenty of rest, drink over a gallon of water a day and take supplements to fill in the gaps. Taking care of my own health and helping other’s with theirs is what I do daily. It’s how I make a living and it’s something I take pride in. But alas, “you failed” is what I heard. Twice.
You know that moment of choice where you either decide to have a huge pity party, whine and cry and complain or take it to God and fix it? Yes? Okay, well I chose the first path with this. First, I complained about all the people I know who guzzled sodas, ate loads of candy and ice cream and never exercised their entire pregnancy but somehow never had any issues. Then, I felt so bad for myself. I listed a million ways this will impact my happy little schedule. After all, who has time to check their blood sugar three times a day?! And finally, after a day of wallowing, I took it to God.
I couldn’t figure out why I was getting so hung up on this. Really, what’s the big deal?
The big deal is this. In this world we live in our fragile human hearts want to believe that hard work equals success. If we work hard at our job and make wise decisions with our money it will lead to prosperity. If we take care of our bodies it will lead to a long healthy life. If we take care of our children they will grow up to be perfect little people. However, news flash…it doesn’t always happen like that! In fact, most of the time it doesn’t. Businesses still fail. Retirement plans collapse. Children still disobey. Our health continues to fail. Why? Because we live in this world. This world will never subscribe to a perfect formula because it will never be a perfect place. It is temporary but what is unseen is eternal. Heaven is our eternal home and our only constant hope.
But God. But God is one of my favorite reminders. Those two words remind me even if the perfect formula is not present in this life, a perfect God is. He dwells within us, walks among us and surrounds us in His love. While worldly circumstances may never be perfect, His plan always is. He works all things together for good. In some crazy mysterious way, we weaves every up and down into a tapestry of love. While we’ll never understand it in this life, we can be certain of its hope eternal.
With that, I’ll prick my finger, check my blood and continue to take care of this temple because God has a perfect plan for me.
2 Corinthians 4:16-18, Romans 8:28