The best thing about this business isn’t the money, or the freedom it’s brought us or even the friendships. Even better than the amazing products, is the person I’m becoming on this journey. Four years ago, I was praying my way out of a pit of post partum anxiety. I had no idea God was about to use a “crazy wrap thing” to mold me into the person designed for His calling, but He is. While He is the same yesterday, today and forever, I am constantly being changed into His image. Because of this company, we have vision! We know God is equiping us for Providence, a ministry that He will build somehow through us to serve our veterans. And while He does, he’s given us a golden ticket to fund it. I don’t know what dreams are still lying dormant within you, I don’t know what “more” could be out there waiting for you, I don’t know the qualities that could be ready to grow but I know this… NOTHING will ever change until YOU make a change!!!
One YES changed everything for us.
It is too foggy this morning to see the cross. In fact, if you didn’t know it was there, you’d never even know to look for it. It is completely hidden under a dense cloud of fog. When I woke up, headed to the bathroom and looked out the window, I have to admit I was a little disappointed to not be greeted by the cross standing boldly in my view like every other morning. Immediately, 1 Corinthians 13:12 came to mind; For now we see in a mirror, dimly, but then face to face. Now I know in part, but then I shall know just as I also am known. I love the way The Message interprets this verse; We don’t yet see things clearly. We’re squinting in a fog, peering through a mist. But it won’t be long before the weather clears and the sun shines bright! We’ll see it all then, see it all as clearly as God sees us, knowing him directly just as he knows us!
Ever feel like you can’t see the road ahead in this life? Like you’re squinting in a fog? Uncertainty can stop us dead in our tracks. It can paralyze us and keep us from taking the next step forward. I’ve often wished for a road map of life; that God would, upon birth, bestow the answers to every question you’ll encounter. Take this job. Marry this person. Buy this car. Move to this town. Clear, concise, and no questions about it; a complete handbook on every twist and turn we’ll encounter. And while the safe side of me, the one that wants to curl up in the closet and hide in the fetal position when life gets tough, thinks that would be fantastic, the adventurer in me calls it cheating. Afterall, what would there be to gain, to learn or to consider accomplishments if everything in life had already been decided? The older I get the more I realize, asking for that road map, is really asking to remove faith. To have faith is to be sure of the things we hope for, to be certain of the things we cannot see, Hebrews 11:1.
I am certain that cross is still on the hill. I can’t see it, but I know it is there and I have faith that soon the fog will lift and I will see clearly again. I’ve seen the cross before so I can easily trust in it’s reappearance. My heart’s desire is that I will learn to trust in the appearance of things I’ve not yet seen. I’ve not yet glimpsed loved ones coming to Christ, but I trust it will happen. I’ve not yet seen our veteran’s ministry being built but I trust God will indeed build His Providence. My prayer is that my faith in these unseen matters will be as strong as it is in knowing the cross is still there behind the fog. For “Now I know in part, but then I shall know just as I also am known.”
Maybe the next time we face some uncertainty we’ll remember that even if we can’t see it, the cross is still there.
This is our first spring in our new house. Because we moved in the winter months, we weren’t sure what the landscape would look like in bloom. It was exciting to see those first white blossoms of the weeping cherry and the pink buds pop on the magnolia. Then there was this tree. As white turned to green and every tree in the yard reached full bloom, this tree remained nothing but bare branches. The brown was a stark contrast against the bright green that had become the backdrop of our yard. “Looks like we’ll need to cut that one down”, I told my husband. “I can drop it”, he said, likely excited by the chance to put a chainsaw to good use. We assumed it was dead, since all the other trees where now full of vibrant green leaves and this one remained barren. But then, just a few days after that conversation we noticed buds all through the top of the tree. What was brown and bare, now seemed to have life bursting forth. Within a week, green leaves were popping out and a few days later the entire tree was in full green glory! It scarcely resembled that old “dead” tree we planned to cut down. In fact, it’s one of the best shade trees in the yard.
I can’t help but think of our dreams in relation to this tree. So many times, we set a goal and begin to go after it. We water it, we tend to it but if it remains barren too long, if the fruit is not produced in the time we expected, we give up on that dream. We cut it down. It’s so easy to look around at other dreams being fulfilled. We look at others achieving their goals and think our time has expired. They are in full bloom while our stuggled attempts to reach our goal stand out like the stark brown contrast of a bare tree in a forest of green. It is so easy to get caught up in the timeline rather than the ultimate destination. We let the dream die if it doesn’t bloom in the time we expect. What if we waited just a few more days? Would we start to see buds break forth? What if some of the dreams you’ve cut down were just a week away from fulfillment? Or what if it took years? Would it still be worth it? If your dream is big enough, it will be worth the wait. Whether it takes months, years or a lifetime to see it come to fruition, it will be worth it.
Let the timeline go, my friends. Let comparison fall to the wayside. This is your time. It may take longer than expected or it may surprise you. Just as you are about to cut it down, it may suddenly decide to bloom.
There is a time for everything,
and a season for every activity under the heavens. Ecclesiastes 3:1
So shall My word be that goes forth from My mouth;
It shall not return to Me void,
But it shall accomplish what I please,
And it shall prosper in the thing for which I sent it. Isaiah 55:11
There are moments I doubt. I question everything. Where I am, what I’m doing…
We left the Army and a Department of Defense job for a crazy wrap thing??? We packed up our lives, our son and brand new baby to move where we believed God was calling us. We told the world about a dream to build a ministry retreat center and help military families!
Are we crazy???!!
What if we were wrong. What if we ARE crazy? What if it never happens? What if it all falls apart??
Yes, oh yes there are moments I doubt. I wrestle. I question. But then. Then there are moments like this one. When the sun bursts over our house and I look out to the cross and I remember. I remember WHOSE I am! I remember why we’re here and I remember the God who can do all things, any thing through me, in spite of me and with or without me.
The truth is, He doesn’t even need us but He’s called us.
He knows when and how and every tiny detail in between.
So I rest once again and keep my eyes on the cross.
Afterall, my God moves the mountains He moved us to.
#atthecross #pathtoprovidence #lifeunfiltered
Drop the labels from the past. Even from yesterday. You are not worried, behind, overwhelmed, scared, late, hurried, angry, upset, weak, tired, incapable or any other lie you once believed. Rest in the fact that you are just His.
Father, peel and scrape away at old ideas and mindsets that keep me stuck. The ones that hold me back from your plans. For you know the plans you have for me and they are good. They are for prosperity and growth. Then fill me fresh and clean like a basket of flowers. Let New Life grow with new ways and new thoughts. Jesus, keep me from settling into less than abundant life!
I have officially been back in a workout routine for 2 weeks now and already feeling better but for months I made excuses for not going! Sick kid, too busy, too tired, baby is fussy, don’t know anyone. These are just a few. Then it took some time to dig really deep and figure out exactly why I wasn’t wanting to go. I used to love working out! And in fact I almost became addicted to that time each day. After the kids and running the business from home it became much more difficult to work that time into my daily routine. But time alone wasn’t the only factor keeping me from digging out my sports bra, throwing on my tennis shoes and getting back out there.
So what was it? If I got really honest, I knew the issue was me. There’s a shift that takes place sometimes in motherhood where you forget about yourself. Self care is tossed out the window and your kids begin to define you. The bottom line was, I didn’t think I was good enough.
The gym is where you go to GET in shape so why did I feel like I needed to “be better” before I went?? That’s like trying to “get right” or be sinless before going to church. It makes no sense! This is my year of freedom which means heaping tons of Grace on myself!
It’s time to start where I am and dive in. I’m in a core conditioning class with people 30-40 years older than me. I’m the only one NOT getting a senior discount but you know what, it’s ok. We have to start somewhere!!
It’s the same with any goal. Weightloss, fitness, financial freedom. It has to start where you are right now.
Own it. Then grow it. I know you can do it!
The next time you start to doubt your mom skills, come back to this blog:
Last night I went to take the car seat out to clean it and realized it wasn’t latched in. And I have no idea how long it had been that way!!! This morning, as we drove to school ((late)) my child ate a waffle WITH syrup and half an old pop tart he found in the car. Then he wanted water so I dug around on the floor, found an empty albeit used water bottle and whilst driving, poured some of my water into that and assured him it was clean. We forgot his blue blankey #momfail but it was “wear stripes day” and he is indeed wearing stripes…#winning. Now to go clean the syrup out of the car and find the kid’s water cup!
And God reminds me, I can do anything but I can’t do all the things at once. My mommyhood is messy and that’s ok. My babies are so very loved and that is what matters most!
For now, #itiswell